I'm a cheater

Dear blogspot,
I've converted, I'm cheating on you.  I think I'm going to start posting on tumblr.  No offence, it's not that you haven't been good to me these past couple of years.  It's just so much easier to post pictures, videos and websites on tumblr. But don't worry, I won't delete my account.  I follow some really great people on blogspot. I just don't think I'll ever post again. Sorry.

Lists

Okay, so it's been awhile. I could use this space to update the two readers who read this about what's going on in my life, the unfortunate events that have followed me the past couple of weeks, my plans or whatever...but I'd rather not. Most of it is negative, and it seems like things are looking up, so why dwell on it right? So instead, I'm going to do what I do best and make a fun little post full of lists, and idea I got from Miss Elsie's blog (http://abeautifulmess.typepad.com/)

Five Things I'm loving right now:

1. My baby quilt, my mom made it for me and it's cozy and comforting and made from all of my old baby dresses

2.Yellow nail polish from Hard Candy

3. stumbleupon.com

4. The weather getting slightly warmer

5. My card my mom and Bobby sent me.

Five blogs I'm in love with:

1.http://sweetestnest.blogspot.com/- I can't get enough of her style and her precious little baby

2.http://www.swsmag.net/- I love the photography and charming little wedding ideas, I like planning my pretend wedding

3.http://candimandi.typepad.com/heres_lookin_at_me_kid/- she has the cutest clothes and a great apartment

4.http://www.apartmenttherapy.com/- I so wish I had a cute little apartment to decorate.

5.http://nerveradullmoment.blogspot.com/- I love love love her, she's my friend and I'm so glad she came back to the bloggy world, I love hearing about her life.

Five things I'm excited for:

1. Bonnaroo! I'm going this summer with friends and it's my first official road trip and it has a million bands that I'm in love with.http://www.bonnaroo.com/default.aspx. This wonderfulness is going to be there too!

2. Austin someday, maybe.

3. Academy Awards on Sunday

4. Mexico in two weeks

5. Alice in Wonderland this weekend

Five Songs I'm obsessed with:

1. Please, Please, Please Let Me- The Smiths. It's so beautiful

2. Silvia- Miike Snow. Chill and electric all at the same time

3.Halo/Walking on Sunshine-Glee Soundtrack. It's a little nerdy of me, but it's so catchy and good. I wish I had those kind of pipes

4. Horchata- Vampire Weekend

5. Breakin' Up- Rilo Kiley. She has great style and makes great music

That was hard to narrow down five songs.

Okay, that was fun. Just what I needed to remind myself of happy things in my life. What are some things that you are excited for, or some happy things in your life?

Also, the boy took me on a surprise date on Sunday. We watched Crazy Heart at this vintage theater and ate I-HOP afterward. So fun.

Home is wherever there is you.

I feel like this blog has consisted a lot about home recently. I guess in a way, my life has as well. My favorite song as of late is Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros, I talk about Oregon with anyone who will listen and I get crazy excited anytime I get close to going back to Borger. The latter is the main point of this blog, and also this is probably the last blog that Sawah will read while she is away. These past few weeks have continued to be crazy. Thanksgiving was not much of a break for me sadly. My grandpa was home so he slept in my brothers bed, my brother slept in my bed and me and my mom shared her new ginormous bed. My mom's room is the only room upstairs with no door, just stairs and a room if that makes sense. So when my grandpa wakes up at five in the morning, turns on all the downstairs lights and blasts the tv, I hear and see it all. Pretty frustrating not feeling rested over a break. It was like too little time to hang out with everyone I wanted to see (Ashley, Sam, the Shermans) but too much time to hang out with solely a few people. This week has been finals week and I took my last one today, Ed Psych which was crazy easy. Now it's just making myself busy so today goes quickly and tomorrow comes even quicker. I'm very ready for a nice long break for the next month or so. I'm tired of school, even though I love OBU (despite my past angsty update), I'm just ready to be away from the bubble for awhile, and not sleep in that stiff little bed either. As usual I'm excited to see my sweet sweet doggy and sleep with her in my own bed (Grandpa won't be there this break). And just relax, going to Leah and Daniel's wedding, substitute, hang out, play and all of that.
This year I feel a crazy amount of Christmas spirit. Last year me and my family were just not feeling it I guess. I wasn't that excited, my mom didn't put up the tree or decorate or anything, and there was just no spirit. This year however, my heart leaps anytime a Christmas song comes on, and I can't stand the wait for Christmas Eve with my big crazy family. I know that it will be the best Christmas ever. John's family is going out of town for Christmas to California, he didn't want to go because they're going to be gone for two weeks, which means he'd miss Dan and Leah's wedding, and he just wanted to be home. My family, of course, extended an invitation and he gets to fully be a part of all of our traditions. Let me list them for you, it's comical how many there are, and I guess that's why I love it.
1. We open all the presents on Christmas Eve
2. It's always at my Tia Nani's house
3. We don't eat a real meal, just snack foods (each Tia has a "specialty")
4. Me and my cousin Jessica always separate the presents and decide where each person is going to sit.
5. We always open presents one at a time, from youngest to oldest.
6. We always make wishlists and draw names on Thanksgiving
7. The girls always exchange ornaments
8. On Christmas day my Tia Lala always makes a lunch for us in Amarillo
9. After lunch we usually go watch a movie or play board games at her house.
10. It's always always always loud fun and there's an abundance of love.
I feel so blessed to have the family I have, we're crazy and annoying and dysfunctional, but we all love each other and make every get together so much fun.

Anyways, tomorrow morning John and I head out back to Borger, with a pit stop in El Reno for lunch with my dad. I can't wait to be HOME.

Also, this is for Sawah.
Sarah,
I've missed you a lot this semester, it's really taken some getting used to. I can't wait to cuddle with you and re teach you social norms (not that you've ever had them anyway). I can't wait to fully catch you up on everything. I know you've done some great things where you are and you want to stay and leave all at the same time. And for my own selfish reasons, I'm jealous. I miss your pretty face and infectious laugh. I can't wait for you to be home. Call me as soon as you get there, I need to hear your voice and know that you're back on my side of the world. (I have a new number p.s). Thanks for letting me be in charge of Good Shep this year, it was challenging and intimidating and so much fun, but it misses you. Come home and come home safely. I miss you so so so so so so so so much.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

Craziness

My life has been nuts recently. This week (and a few days after the break) I'll have two tests, one being a Civ test, a Civ research paper, a philosophy paper, a lesson for my Foundations class, working nine hours a week on top of other normal home work. Craziness. Because of said craziness I decided to delete my facebook. In all honesty, it was a really rough decision, especially since my best friend uses that to talk to me sometimes. But in all honesty, we don't talk that often. And I don't really talk to anyone else on there and somehow it takes up a huge chunk of my time. I just didn't need it. Instead of homework I did facebook, instead of a quiet time I did facebook, it just isn't good. I've felt pretty good since not having it, despite some grief from a few people.

So...lately I've felt kind of tired of OBU. I don't feel like I have that many friends here anymore, I pretty much only see Ben, John and Katey on a regular basis. It's sad that nobody really hangs out anymore since everyone got apartments. We only get together every once in awhile for birthdays and a few family dinners. And Shawnee, I am not a fan. There seems like there is nothing to do (not that I'd have time). And it's not like Borger, which is small, but I know all the neat things to do there and places to go because I've lived there my whole life. And it's not a new place anymore, there is nothing cool to do in Shawnee, Oklahoma. I'm ready for another point in my life (like Oregon) but more than that, I'm just ready for a break. After the craziness that is this week, it'll be great to go home, see some familiar faces and just be home, away from Oklahoma.

Anyways, for craziness and melt downs, this week has been good. I lost my I.D and have NO money until tomorrow so I've been eating lunch and dinner with John which has been fun, nice to spend some time together even though we're insanely busy. I am also really enjoying my job, I get paid to color and watch Disney movies for three hours. It's pretty tiring, but I like it. As the week goes on, I get more and more checked off of my to-do list. I taught my lesson today, tomorrow is my Civ test (which I am uncharacteristically not worried about) and I already have four pages done on my seven-ten page research paper done. Life isn't too bad, even when it's terrible. Because my God is wonderful

My Trip Home

So I went home this past weekend. It was JUST what I needed, God really did work that one out for me. I got to visit my beloved Sherman family and it was amazing. I hung out with Ember and we talked and made each other laugh and I played with Brysee and Corbee. I love those little boys. I got to hang out with Johns family and chill at his house doing homework and watching Mad Men. And my dog! I love her! I got to hug her neck and sing her songs and sleep with her in my new big girl bed. Nineteen years old and my first time to sleep in my very own big girl bed (which was wonderful by the way). I got to joke with Bobby and eat home cooking. I loved spending time with my mom and just relaxing with her and talking and catching up.

I hung out a lot with "John's friends" as well. Hoss and Austin were the main two that I saw, but it was so much fun! We sat outside and talked while Hoss and Austin smoked a cigarette, we made each other laugh, watched movies, cooked dinner and ate Mexican bread. I've known Austin since my Junior year and Hoss and I hung out quite a bit this past summer but for some reason it was this weekend that made me feel close to them. I am not sure why but I'm glad it happened, I really miss them and it makes me sad that I can't be with those guys all year. They're wild and hysterical and intelligent and love good movies and accepting and everything.

As I left home on Sunday I began to really feel the pains of growing up. I realized that at this point in my life there isn't a home. I feel (to steal a line from garden state more or less) that I'm just in search of home. I don't live at OBU but I don't live at home, and that's the way it will be until I make this home by myself; without all these other elements that I consider to be home. Soon new elements will become more like home to me than Austins house, sleeping with my dog and crawling into bed with my mom. This is sad and exciting all at the same time. I don't know...but I do know that I'm not ready for all of that to happen just yet. But whether I'm ready or not, growing up will happen to me. I just hope I can put it off for as long as I can

My God Is So BIG

Well, you know how the other day I was sort of bummed about not being able to be home until Thanksgiving? Well all of that has changed. My mom was supposed to come to Shawnee to visit us and my Grandmother. But my Grandmother said it was probably better that we didn't because it would be pretty stressful and she's sick. So somehow that turned into me making a weekend trip on the 30th to go home, which has more recently turned into me making a weekend trip this weekend. I'm SO excited. I'm leaving Thursday afternoon because I get done at around 12 and on Friday I only have one class (which I will skip). I have a brand new big girl bed for the first time in my life. For a long time I've had this janky little day bed that is missing a screw and squeeks anytime you move. But now I have a queen sized bed! Yay!! Hopefully my mom didn't rearrange my things in my room too much (she loves doing that and I hat e it.). I also REALLY miss my dog, we're two peas in a pod. She always hangs out with me when I'm sick or sad, she sits and watches TV with me and I lay down with her every night before I go to bed and hug her and love on her. And now that I have a huge bed she can sleep with me. I also really miss my mom and Bobby, can't wait to spend some time with them and just be in Borger. I miss my moms cooking. I miss me and Bobby feeding off of each others silliness. I miss spending hours at hastings. I miss POM juice at United. I miss the way Ember says "loser". I miss hearing Tracy say "Anitaaaa". I miss it all, and even though it's just for a few days I think it will rejuvinate me for school. I love home, and I know I'm getting older and parting with the past conception of "home" is part of it. But I'm still getting used to that. I might as well enjoy it while I can. Home here I come!

Fall Break

So my best friend Sarah Disch asked me to write a new blog because it's been about two weeks since the last one. It's kind of comforting knowing that SOMEONE reads this silly little blog.

Not too much has gone on these past two weeks. Wednesday was the beginning of Fall Break. Everyone went to Vern's house in Kansas City except John and I. First we weren't invited (lame), then we were, then John had to work so he couldn't go. I felt bad leaving him here by himself to just work and have no one to hang out with, so I stayed too. Even if I hadn't stayed here with him I don't think I would have gone to Kansas City. I really miss home. I'm glad that I stayed and I've had fun but I really miss my house, and my mom and Bobby and my dog. I cried some on Thursday because I missed everything so much. It's weird, this is the longest I've gone without going home. Luckily my mom is coming to visit in two weeks so I think that will be refreshing to have her here. But this break has been fun. John and I rented a million movies from Family Video to watch. We watched some Wednesday and Thursday night and on Friday we went to the city and had delicious pizza from Hideaway. Hideaway is this pizza place that has tons of great, different pizzas. Some have alfredo sauce, pesto, oil and barbecue and tons of different toppings. YUM. Then we went to the Warren, this vintage inspired theater, and watched Where The Wild Things Are. It was just as wonderful as I was hoping it would be. It was my favorite book when I was a kid, and the theme is even the best place is not as good as home. It was so wonderful. Tonight John and I are cooking dinner and watching more movies. I think it will be fun. The break hasn't been super exciting, but it's been fun. It would've been nice to get away for a few days, but that's okay. At least I got some quality time with the boy.

I want to mention this (even though it's irrelevant) but I've been eating healthy (lots of tasty salads), not drinking carbonated drinks, drinking lots of water and going to yoga regularly. And in the past few weeks I've lost five pounds. I know that's lame to mention but I'm really proud of myself. I'm hoping to loose maybe 6 more..but we'll see. I feel great though.

Anyways, that's what's happening in my life right now. (and P.S I love you and miss you Sarah)